FALLING...The sounds of your heart

If you haven’t been keeping up with my true life experience with my first journey down road of FALLING, click HERE for FALLING.

Click HERE for FALLING…The Morning After. You have to stay up-to-date with this one. Will I get my heart broken? Will Mr. Man get over his fears and eventually give me his heart. If I can’t tell Mr. Man how I feel, then I have to tell you.

I always watch you undress before you get into the shower. I'm

mesmerized by you. I analyze every inch of your body while wishing

I could tell you how I really feel. It gets harder and harder to

keep up this front as if I don't strongly feel for you. I continue

to act as if I'm not FALLING for your mental,your physical, your

heart, your soul...your flaws and all.



I've never truly fell. With all these new and unfamiliar emotions I

experience when I'm with you, my heart gets more and more anxious.

I watch you walk away from the bedroom to the kitchen in all your

manliness and ask God “Please just let it be...let it be...him".

Tears begin to well up in my eyes because my heart fills with so

much emotion as I type this. When you’re FALLING and you’re trying

to fight it, it’s like stress on your heart. It’s like a burden on

your soul that will get heavier as you keep your feelings a secret.



Mr. Man, for you to know what I truly feel, I fear that I will never

see you again due to your own fears of FALLING. I drift off into my

own thoughts of you. I think just as much about you when I'm in your

presence than when I'm not.



Damn...You just spotted me in a trance...completely paralyzed by my

own thoughts of you. "What?” you ask me. I snap out of the trance at

the sound of your voice and "Huh", is all I can respond with. We

settle into bed for the night to begin another work week the next

day. You put in a movie for us to fall asleep to. I'm so tired. I

already know I won't last another 30 minutes being awake. 

I lay my head on your chest and I feel your heart beating. I adjust

my head on your chest to not only feel the beating of your heart but

to hear it. My head and ear are now perfectly aligned. It’s the

sweetest sound that I have ever heard before closing my eyes. I

peacefully drift off to the soothing music of your heart. 

Your Flaws & All…Breathe In...Breathe Out...Inhale...Exhale...



as I drift into sleep...I'm FALLING.



*INDIE*