1.04.2009

What are you AFRAID of???

It's Sunday night, and i'm sitting in my living room watching "Nostradamus:2012" and i am not exactly sure why i am reflecting on fears or why exactly this topic was one i seeked to write about. I'm indecisive about the reasons behind this but it prompted me to ask myself the question "What am i afraid of?".....

I sat for moments wondering and asking myself over and over again, coming up with answers that i laughed away cause it seem so ridiculous when it finally slapped me with a force that made tears brim in my eyes.

I AM AFRAID OF FAILING...................
I AM AFRAID OF BEING IN LOVE AGAIN.......
I AM AFRAID OF ME........................


Wow! What are you afaid of??


**MAIA Note Well**

17 comments:

RAEthoven said...

im afraid of falling in love too.
im afraid of being the woman who has it all and nobody to share it with/being alone for the rest of my life.
im really afraid i wont be able to buy my mother a new house and car etc so she can retire.
im afraid of death.

Beautifully.Conjured.Up said...

In no particular order:

*God
*A broken heart
*Spiders
*Clowns
*Failure

Fab4 said...
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Adina said...

Hmmmm...gosh ok here are some I can think of off the top of my head...

-losing self while putting others first
-Leaving behind my son
-failure (Totally agree BC)
-losing those I love & value the most
-losing focus of my values
-Not getting that home I'm working so hard on getting

Fab4 said...

Hmmmm...I like this post because it really makes you sit back and think about all your fears, hence making it the first step to facing some of those fears. Also, the first step in determining if you need to seek professional therapy..hahaha. So here I go...

1. I'm afraid that even my education and hard work won't break the family cycle of living uncomfortably and barely getting by.

2. I'm afraid of falling in love.

3. I'm afraid of NEVER falling in love because...

4. I'm afraid that I will never get to experience sharing a lifetime with my life partner. Leading to my fear of...

5. Being alone and never to have experienced true love

6. I'm afraid of not being able to afford a college education for my child.

7. I'm afraid to have more kids because...

8. I'm afraid of getting fat and not being able to fit into my size 7 jeans anymore *my shallow side talking*...lol

9. However, I'm afraid of NOT having anymore kids because the next time I have a child, I will be a married woman.

8. I'm afraid of death because I don't know when its coming and how it's going to take me away. I want to see my child or future children grow, get old and have babies of their own.

*Side Note: I'm not afraid to meet God when death does come for me*

9. I'm afraid of my recent feelings of wanting to spend the rest of my life falling asleep to the sounds of Mr. Man's heart beating because...

10. I'm afraid eventually he may just hurt me.

These are my fears that I was able to think of off the top of my head. However, I'm a mess...so I'm sure I can come up with at least 50 more of my fears.

Maia honey, this was a good one.

*INDIE*

**trucee writer** said...

hmmm, im afraid of:
1. dying alone (without a significant other)
2. facing God on judgement day
3. never reaching my goals

and some other personal things :(

The FEATURE™ said...

This is a good post, very thought provoking. But why does it take Nostradamus to help us realize our fears. However, to answer the question, "what am I afraid of?"

I'm not afraid of anything that comes to me in life. I've experienced so much and seen it all exposed and life is inevitable. No need to fear the unknown and the known has already been overcome, so why fear something you already overcame.

However, to be honest and agree with some of your posts, the one thing I truly fear is intimacy from others. I think feelings of the heart hurt more than feelings of the body and I don't ever want to experience those feelings again. So when it begins, I become anxious and want to run as far away as possible. Maybe I do need to seek some therapy for this, but who knows!

Fab4 said...

Feature, sounds like there is a few of us on here that need some therapy when it comes to the "L" disease...lol.

The FEATURE™ said...

I'm working on it though...I've self subscribed some serious medicinal properties to help me through those times. Put on some Bob [Marley] and elevate myself...lol.

Peggy M. said...

here goes: in no particular order - the minor and the not so minor...

I'm afraid of:

*dying before I get a chance to completely turn my life over to Him.

*dying and leaving my daughter behind and not seeing her accomplish several things.

*not being able to set a perfect example for my daughter.

*losing my mom or the twins.

*losing real close friends.

*failing whatever I set my mind to do.

*losing a job in this tumtultuous economy.

*getting hurt - not just by anyone though - by him.

*losing him.

*hurting him.

*mice

*not fulfilling my passion for writing.

*being a statistic.

*marriage.

Peggy M. said...

Dre... you know nothing about no Marley Elevation. Stop frontin'... =]

B.Marie said...

I'M AFRAID TO BE ALONE... I'M AFRAID THAT THE PERSON WHO DARES TO LOVE ME REALLY DOESN'T, AND I'M AFRAID MY SUCCESS WILL CREATE A MONSTER OUTTA ME.

I LOVE YOU GIRLS SOOOO MUCH CUZ YOU GUYS KEEP IT REAL

Fab4 said...

Awwwwww Anjl Marie that was so sweet of you!! We love you guys just as much & truly thank everyone for the support :)

Miss Dior!!

Fab4 said...

Anjl Marie,

HUGS & KISSES 2 YA! Thank you for the love honey. We absouluetly love to be loved just as much as we love to be hated..OWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...lol.

INDIE

Fab4 said...

Anjl, you are too sweet... thanks for the love. Our mission is to always keep it real.

You like it, we love it.

thanks girlie =]

Karrie.

B.C.C said...

I am afraid of...

>Death
>failure
>My son not being as ambitious as I am when he gets older
>losing my job
>going through life without finding true love

Peculiar Alex said...

OUT OF SEQUENCE...

*CIRCUS CLOWNS :'(
*COMMITMENTS [RELATIONSHIP WISE]
*LIARS [THEY HAVE DARK POWERS] lol
*BUT AS WELL LETTING FEAR DEFEAT
*ANTS... EEK!!! [THEY MAKE MY SKIN CRAWL]
*HURTING MY BESTFRIEND/IBM= IDEALBLKMAN/ASTOUNDING SPOUSE AGAIN
*LOSING MY PARENTS TO DEATH
*SACRIFICING MY BELIEFS TO PLEASE ANOTHERS SMH
*BEING A UNFIT PARENT WHEN I DECIDE TO HAVE CHILDREN, THEN AGAIN THATS NOT A OPTION...PHUCK THAT!!!
*LOSING MY JOB
*NOT HAVING MY LIFE IN ORDER ENTIRELY BEFORE MEETING MY MAKER*****